why are you guys mad at me ?

Have you ever heard of karma ? you know, the mystical force that evens out all the wrong doings in the world. Well, I think the dude who’s in charge of giving out karma is pissed with me. Damn. It all started out a couple of months ago. I was in a relationship with this girl. She was really nice and kind. Any guy would be so lucky to have her. To be honest, I really didn’t have feelings for her. I thought that the feelings will comew once we’re together. I was really lonely during that time, I really needed someone who will comfort me. That was why I decided to enter into a relationship with her. This was a mistake. I was really so stupid. What was I thinking ? I had no feelings for the girl, why did I want to be with her? I t was a mistake. She deserves to be happy, she deserves someone else. While my girlfriend and I were together, I was secretly in love with another girl. This girl was a close friend of mine. She’s truly something special. A breathe of fresh air that came into my life. She had everything that I was looking for in a girl. I really wanted to be with her. But because I was still in a relationship, I just kept my feelings to myself. I just continued with my relationship, as my feelings for my friend grew and grew. One day, my girlfriend noticed that I wasn’t truly happy with her. She gave me some time to think if a I wanted to continue our relationship. After thinking about everything, I realized that I would just be hurting her if we continue with our relationship. That is why we broke up. After a day, I was attending a class with the girl that i’m in love with. She encountered a little trouble with her bus. She needed a place to spend the night in. My house was just near the university, that is why I graciously asked her if she wanted to stay at my place. Well, she agreed. She slept here for a night. I stayed up the whole night watching her sleep ( stalker ?.. haha). She was just so pretty. I said to myself, I wish she’s my girlfriend. The next couple of weeks would be one of the happiest for me. We were constasntly talking and talking. She was just so fun to be wtih. Time flies by when we talk. We agree on everything. We like the same things. It’s like being with your clone. One rainy night, I decided to tell her how I feel about her. To my suprise, she felt the same way. She told me that she’s not yet comfortable with us being together, she needed time to think it through. Even if we weren’t together, I was still so freakin happy. I felt like I was on top ofthe world. Never have I felt this way for a gril. After a few days, my ex-girlfriend sent me a message. She asked why was I talking shit about her ? She said that I should leave her alone becuase we are already finished. I really didn’t know what she was tlaking about, that is why I just ignored her. When night time came, the girl that i’m in love with sent me a text message. She also asked why was I talking shit about her? Our friends were also asking why was I making such horrendous statements. This is where the karma stuff enteres. My ex girlfriend is mad at me, the girl that I like doesn’t want to talk to me, and my friends are mad at me. Shit ! Damn you karma dude ! To be honest, I really don’t know why they’re mad at me. They just all talked to each other and decided to be mad at me. They didn’t even hear me out. Damn ! I don’t really care if my Ex is mad at me, I didn’t do anything wrong. I don’t care if she stays mad. Well, with my friends, it’s a completely different story. I truly care about them, I don’t know what to do . That’s ironic because I don’t even know what I did in the first place. I hope they forgive me for whatever it is that I did. Damn ! it’s so unfair. For the girl that I love, I can’t bear her being mad at me. I really love her so much. Damn ! She told me to forget everything that she told me that night. Huhu.. I hate you karma dude !