paksyet..

i'm so freakin lazy. I haven't started my summatives yet.

for her.. again.

If you only you knew,
That I have fallen for you..
Even I didn’t have a clue,
That my heart,
Wanted more with you..

Surely,
Our friendship will be through,
If I ask for more than what is due..
That is why,
With you,
I have no idea on what to do.

One thing is for certain though,

What I feel for you,
It really is true..
I want to be the one who’ll make you happy
Cause to hurt you,
That I can never ever do.

If only you knew.

homesick.

Being away from from my family really really sucks. I really miss them so much. I can't really put into words the loneliness that I feel. Eventhough I am living with a great bunch of people, I still feel so lonely and alone. I've already been here for 3 months. I should already be well adjusted and not in my current state. But that is not the case. Whenever I am chatting with them, I make it look like that I am fine here, but deep inside, I am a mess. I really want to go home. I am having a really hard time here. I have to worry about so many things that I know nothing about. Damn ! why did I even go here ? What was I thinking ? I don't think the money that I earn can compensate for what I am feeling right now. Homesickness has gotten over me. Damn ! I hope that i'll be able to conquer this. huhuhu..

major dillemma.

There's this girl which I really like. She's fun, pretty, smart etc.. Everything that I find attractive in a girl, she has it. I'll do anything for us to be together. I think i'm in love with her. Damn. But, there's this little problem. We are really close friends. Most of you might consider this as a pro, more than a con. Unfortunately, things are pretty different. You see, she and I are part of a pretty tight group of friends. This group is the only thing that keeps me happy here. Not a day passes by that I don't think of them. I think of them as family now. You have no idea on how I look forward to our meetings. Being with this group of people is my own personal heaven. Let's go back to the girl. What if things don't work out between us ? The most logical thing that can happen is we will avoid each other. That means one of us will need to leave the group. Am I willing to take this tremendous risk ? haaaays. The group has mixed feelings about my little dillemma. Some of them told me to take things slow, and think about it. Some of them tell me that I should go for her immediately. One of them told me that if I should make a move, I need to make sure that I will truly care for her and never ever hurt her. To be honest, I really do have strong feelings for this girl. I want to be with her. I want to take care of her. I want to make her happy. I'm really confused. I don't know what to do. hays. I hope i'll figure this out.

tula na nman.. haha !

The whole word knows..
That she’s the one that my heart yearns for.
The girl that I love and adore.
With each passing day more and more.
For someone, i’ve never felt this way before.
Every moment I ponder.
On, if I should ever tell her.
Unfortunately, that I just can’t conquer.
Being together is still a blur.
So many things still make me wonder.
I really hope that to her, I really matter.
Cause nothing in this will be better,
If this girl and me,
Will finally be together.

library time..

We don't have a lecure today, just a lot of awesome free time. Unfortunately, the weather is not that good today. That is why my friends and I decided to go to the library. The library of my university is so freakin awesome. There are gazillions of books here. It's a paradise for geeks and nerds. I really don't have anything to do here. I just came here to fool around with my friends. I spend majority of my time here wiht inang guitang. I'm having a blast with her, it's like being with a girl version of myself ( but with a darker complexion ! haha ). So that is why being here is not that boring. Actually, i'm really enjoying it Yeah boy !