I feel so alone !

Loneliness has struck again! I don't why, but i'm feeling so lonely nowadays. I feel so alone and isolated. Maybe it's because of what has happened to me and you-know-who, i'm not really sure. I really miss her so much. Damn ! Why does this have to happen ? I really love her so much. If only people didn't make stories. It also pisses me off that THEY didn't even wanted to hear me out. They dropped the bomb and I was caught off guard. I really liked her, she was definitely something else. haaay ! Anyway, I feel so lonely again. It's like being back to square one. I'm yearning for my friends and family once again. Damn.. Honestly, I want to go home. I don't think I can bear this kind of loneliness again. I hope something good happens soon. Thinking about what has happened is making me crazy. When I was back home, when I get these type of problems, alcohol usually solves it. But not this time, it's so different. I guess cupid has me on a chokehold. I want to go back to my former self again. Because right now, all my smiles are forced. There's really nothing to lift up my spirit. I really hope something nice happens. I just have to be strong for the mean time. I can overcome this.. Oh GOD please help me with this one.