I've been here for a month now..

By now, I should no longer be lonely. I should now be well adjusted and adapted to my new home. Unfortunately, it isn't happening. I'm still so freaking lonely. Fuck! I'm really so miserable down here. The sad thing is, I don't have anyone to help or console me. I can't tell my family because i'm really sure that they will worry about me ( especially my mamita ! ). The last thing I want to do is make t hem sad because of worrying about me. I can tell my friends about how I feel. But, let's be realistic. I know they won't always be there for me. They all have their own problems to face and lives to live. How I wish I had a girlfirend back home. If I had one, i'm sure she'll be there whenever I need someone. She'll be there whenever loneliness is knocking on my door. Hayz. If only things between Mimi and I worked out. If only Dora didn't left. If only, if only if only.. That's the only thing in my mind right now. Damn! I really want to go home.