the lost symbol.

Jayne and I were planning to buy an SLR camera. You know, the big and bulky cameras that are a lil bit expensive. We were planning to split the cost of the camera. To be honest, I don't really give a damn about the camera. What i'm excited about is what the camera will depict or express. Having something that both of us "conjugally" owns is a sign that our relationship is strong and will last a very long time. Well, after thinking about it, she suddenly backed out. She is wondering what will happen if we broke up? what will happen to the camera? She says that the camera is quite expensive. It would be very complicated if we break up, we can't split the freaking camera in half, can we ? She tells me that it would be better if she would just save and buy the camera on her own money. What do i feel about all this ? well, hmmmmmm.. Let me check. It's no biggie, but i'm a lil bit disappointed. As i've said earlier, I don't give a damn about the camera. If worse comes to worst, I'll just give her the camera and walk away. It's that simple. What makes me a bit gloomy is she's already thinking about a possible break up. It would have been a symbol of a long and steady relationship. I understand her decision, it's a practical and realistic decision. It's her money and I can't force her to spend it. I'm just a lil bit disappointed about this whole camre fiasco. But hey, life goes on. Chill.