I really dont know why..

The past few weeks have been so hard on me. Since coming here to London, I can't recall a time when I was happy or having fun. I'm really trying hard to adjust and cope up with my new environment. But to no avail. Im really lonely here. I miss so many persons ( my family, friends, athena, mimi, etc ...). Most of the people I meet says that the first month is always the hardest. They say that my loneliness will gradually disappear and i will be just fine. I really hope that happens. I don't think that I will survive here if I will this lonely for a year. Honestly, I really don't want to be here. I know that you guys will tell me that I should make the most of the oppurtunity that has been given to me. My mom says that i'm very lucky because not all Filipino nurses can afford to leave and work abroad. With that said, I guess i'll just have to face the music. Work hard to ensure the future of my family. Eventhough I will be so lonely and miserable. Why does it have to be this way? haaaay.